Belated Valentines

Yesterday was valentines day. A day that the world tries to express love to those around us through chocolate, cards and gifts. God is teaching me a lot about love lately. What does love really mean or even actually look like? I don't have the exact answer of course, but a few things I know is this...God is love, gives love, and shows love. He gives us love over and over again even when we least deserve it. Loving others around us is something he calls us to do but is often the opposite of what this world is cramming down our throat. Mom knew very well how to love others around her. She showed love to people around her without even trying, she was so caring. She had a strong desire to love God more but never really seem to give herself credit for it. She often put others needs before her own and I have many memories of her telling me how much she loved me. I often lay in bed at night, wondering what heaven must be like for her?. Can she see the days I am sad? Happy? Frustrated? Resentful? So many emotions repeat themselves in my mind just as the waves never stop crashing against the shore. Mom...just in case you didn't know, I am working really hard to work through my pain of losing you. I miss you so much, but I know I can be happy that you no longer have to endure the pain and hurt of this world. I hope you are happy, smiling, and enjoying every moment with God. Love you mom....Happy Valentines Day! (A day late)